hellooooo. long time no update.

here are some pics from the last few weeks

*pics from the last day of training*

kozue-chan, kawachin, me, takechin

me and yamapiiiiiiii

otsuka kun and me, feat. kitayama kun in the background

*friday night at good ol' hubs*

nozomi, maya, nykkol, me

me, andy, nozomi

me drinking watermelon margarita at my mom's bday dinner

my birthday present from Raymond! they're so pretty, thanks honey :)

yes....i am turning 23 in 1.5 hours.......!! aiyaaaaaah

I HATE WORK

it's hard enough going to work 5 days a week. why the f do i have to work tomorrow? it's SUNDAY. i should tell them it's against my religion. seriously.

two more weeks of training....i wish i can fast forward my life to next summer. or to december at least.

grrrrrrr

ugh it's monday again tomorrow. another week of 60 hours of work. weekends need to be like 3 days, not 2. i am so bitter that everybody else gets a summer break the first week of july for 9 days and i dont...because they started training in april and i just started 3 weeks ago. it's not my fault that school ended in may! i should not be punished for that....*grumble* i would so fly back to H-town to see everybody. the past month since i've been back has been the longest month of my life. but like loan told me to, i'll take it one day at a time and before i know it, it'll be december and i'd be like........ooo time to go visit texas!!!! hehe. but i did miss 2 months of training, so i'm quite behind and i know that i need to catch up to everybody else. but still......i dont get ANY days off. booooooo.

but you know what? IT'S PAY DAY ON TUESDAY!!! i will receive my first salary working a real job (granted it's only training right now). though it is rather meager, it's nevertheless exciting.

so i'm watching world cup, japan vs. croatia game, and it's so frustrating. japan keeps shooting at those goals but they just can't make into the stupid goals. they're soooo close. there's about 3 min left in the game and it's 0-0. ugh. i shoulda just went to sleep an hour ago when i could.

i watched pride&prejudice today. it's amazing how happy that movie makes me. i just love love love that movie. love that last scene..."you may only call me mrs.darcy when you're completely, perfectly, and incandescently happy" "mrs.darcy...mrs.darcy...mrs.darcy..." SIGH. im ridiculous, i know.

lately a lot of people i know are getting engaged or married and it's weird. i've always thought that your friends getting married is a sign that you're starting to get old....but i dont think i'm THAT old yet.....people marry so early. i'm really happy for them though :) i'm super excited to go to heather's wedding next april!!!

alright i need to get ready for bed. bye peepz

oooooooh my gosh.

i miss texas more than i thought i would. i'm going CRAZY because i want to go back so badly.

you see, before, i only saw the good side of japan. being able to come back here only once or twice a year for about a month made tokyo such a special place for me. good food, cute clothes that actually fit me, awesome technology that can't be seen in the U.S. i like it how you can just take the train everywhere too. i just came back here in the summer, hung out with friends, did my SDC job, then just flew back to the states just in time for the school to start. it was fun. it's like this city was just a vacationing spot.

but this time, it's different. im gonna start working. it won't always be fun. i mean, it's work, it's expected. and im gonna be here for a very very long time. and when you're in one place for a long time, you start to see the bad things too. already, i'm starting to notice some things that makes me go "oh...maybe japan isnt as awesome as i thought it was". and that makes me want to go back to texas even more. i dont want to be skeptical about my life, i'm already becoming weary of the next few years that i will be spending here.

i miss my roomy calling me "koko" and asking me if she can have some of my food. and our 2am talks. laughing about nothing, about everything. our messy dorm room. our suite, where laughter never seemed to stop. i miss going shopping with my shopping buddie sarah chang and have her tell me that i should "just buy it", whatever i have in my hand. i miss cat talking passionately about food. i miss angeline coming to our suite for tele time or just to come visit. i miss cindy's laugh. i miss heather, or tavis, or crista randomly walking into our room. the "it's dark outside" parties with jenn and peter. i miss driving everywhere (er more like being driven everywhere lol) and eating all these unhealthy american food. i miss being all fobbish, among gaziliion other things. and i miss my raymond. like crazy.

so my plan as of now is to move back to Houston in 2 years. but i dont think i can do 2 years. it's too long. i wanna move back as soon as i can. aaagggggghhhhhhhhhhh

according to xanga, it's been 1186 days since i joined xanga. i registered for it 2nd semester of freshmen year so uhhh that's been quite a long time. crazy. i remember not wanting to conform and do xanga, but i gave in at the end after a few months of  people telling me to join it.

after a fun filled week in H-town, i flew back to tokyo today. i still can't believe that i'm going to stay here indefinitely, or the next 2 years at least. it feels like i'll be flying back to san antonio in august. it's really weird. i'm probably in denial still. 13 hours in the plane gave me a lot of time to think about things. i realized how much i miss my friends already. i started crying but i was like noooo this is not good. so i decided to watch a romantic comedy to make myself feel better. but watching that kind of a movie made me miss my raymond so much, it made me even sadder. sigh. so what did i do? go to sleep. sleeping is always the best solution when u just dont want to deal with a problem.

so it's official, i start work (or rather, training) on june 1st. so tomorrow i'm gonna go look for work clothes i can buy. if i get up that is. or i might be stuck in the house all day because i lost my key to the front door and it's highly doubtful that i'm gonna get up early tomorrow morning so i can get the key from my mom. bleh. i dont feel like dressing up all pretty and going out tomorrow anyways. why cant people here just wear t-shirt and jeans and flip flops like people do in texas? and i dont really have any of my clothes with me. they're probably somewhere aboard a ship in the pacific ocean. i won't get them until end of june. curses. that gives me an excuse to go buy clothes... but no. i couldnt allow myself to do that. that's against my new beliefs. lol.

i totally have jet lag....i fell asleep while i was taking a bath. so now i'm wide awake. thus the xanga-ing. i suppose i should attempt to go to sleep or at least do something other than this, like read. now that i've talked online to people back in Texas, i feel a lot better. especially after i talked to RC :)

alright enough for today. I MISS Y'ALL